my immortal

today while listening to my ipod, a song came on that i hadn't heard in a couple years--a song that unfortunately enough, still holds truth for me.

'my immortal' by evanescence

"i'm so tired of being here,

suppressed by all my childish fears

and if you have to leave,

i wish that you would just leave

your presence still lingers here

and it won't leave me alone.

these wounds won't seem to heal,

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried, i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream, i'd fight away all of your fears

and i held your hand through all of these years

but you still have all of me..

you used to captivate me by your resonating light

now, i'm bound by the life you left behind

your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.

these wounds won't seem to heal,

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried, i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream, i'd fight away all of your fears

and i held your hand through all of these years

but you still have all of me.

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

but though you're still with me,

i've been alone all along.

when you cried, i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream, i'd fight away all of your fears

and i held your hand through all of these years

but you still have all of me, me, me."

psalm 31:3-5 (NIV)
3 since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name, lead me and guide me. 4 free me from the trap that is set for me, for you are my refuge. 5 into your hands i commit my spirit; redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth.

i will find peace. i will find freedom. i will find my place. i won't waste any more of His time trying to find what i think i need when He's had what i've needed the whole time.