blast from the past

while cleaning my room last night, i found a journal that i had written in back in 2004. i flipped through the pages, curious as to what i could have possibly written about, and i found  an entry that i'd like to share.

"as you come to Him, the living stone... rejected by men but chosen by God... you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ." [1 peter 2:4-5]

after talking to ziva saturday night about the difficult parts of how my relationship with [censored] ended, she shared with me that verse. i told her that it wasn't his rejection of me--who i was--that was so hard to deal with but it was his rejection of what i had to OFFER that was so completely hurtful and the hardest for me to deal with. man may reject me, BUT GOD HAS CHOSEN ME. with all my imperfections and failures, God STILL loves me and has still chosen me to be His own! ....WOW! that's a hard one for me to grasp because i AM human and that kind of love does not exist in human nature.

as i read that, i thought of how much my life has changed from the person i was 6 years ago to the person i am today. there's a quote by joyce meyer that always made me smile because no matter where you are in life, it will always hold truth: "i know i'm not where i'm supposed to be but at least i'm not where i USED to be!" AMEN! =D